Children can tell when death is in the air. We as adults need to really listen to what they are saying. I have believed that from a young age. It all started when my baby sister wanted to go to Granddads house. Well, we didn’t go for a couple of days, and she kept bugging us to go. When we did go, 3 days later, he had been dead for those whole 3 days in his house. Murdered by his girlfriend.
I knew then, that I would listen to every word a child says and act on it if possible. I also adopted that, if I have a dream, whoever is in that dream, I would make sure to contact them right away. That was my way to deal with death I guess. If I dream of you, that may be your last chance to say goodbye to me, so I need to reach out to you as well.
Well, my same baby sister is really pushing for us to spend more time together. This really scares me as I have high blood pressure and don’t take care of it the best. Am I going to get sick, hospitalized, or die? Is she? What is she feeling? Why?
She is 9 years younger than me. She wants me to go to lady’s night with her to one of her friend’s house. Keep in mind, they are 10 years younger than me. I once heard that they only want me to come because I am real. I will cuss them out, in a good way, and it is all good. I don’t want to be someone’s entertainment unless I am getting paid. REALLY!!
She wants me to go to the club with her. Well, I am done with my clubbing days. So….
She likes Ragge music and I don’t. The clubs she goes to are Ragge clubs, so….
She wants me to go shopping with her. I had 5 kids and 2 are left at home. I don’t have shopping money like that. I sure ain’t gone window shop while she gets nice things. Does she think how I would feel? I give her money to grab me an item or 2 when she goes. She can really find good deals. I don’t have that luck.
I don’t want to be in the World like she is. I know my temper, hell, I go off in the flipping grocery store. If we were together, WATCH OUT WORLD, she too is a hot head. Being inside is best for us to be together, LOL.
She told me yesterday that I was not a sister enough. WHAT???? I can’t keep paying her off to go places without me. Damn, I didn’t know it was like that. She had the nerve to tell mom and dad on me. REALLY!!!
I told her that I am always there when she calls or needs to talk. I am always home if she needed company. I always cook big, if she needed to eat. What else does a sister need to do? She told me that our relationship was not enough. What do I do? I really need answers. Please tell me!!!