I have someone that was kind to me in my past that has stage 4 cancer. I don’t know what that means, but it can’t be good. It seems irreversible. I know that she may be leaving this world soon and cannot bring myself to see her off for some reason. I left a really bad life and she stayed. I tried to help her and pull her out, but she didn’t have the strength to leave like I did.
Wehn I left, I let go of all the evils and fake people in that circle. She was not one of them but was one of them. I kept in contact with her from afar. She likes my posts on social media sites, sends me happy birthday posts, and is one of my followers. But, she is still in that circle. I cannot be apart of that at this stage of my life.
I know if I were to pass, she would come to see me off, but that circle would be there if I were to go for her. That is a bad situation to put me in. I will pray for her soul on my own. I have my own personal memories. I guess I am staying distant, but I don’t think she would understand. She might though. she knows how I feel and think, so I don’t think she will mind. I can go see her afterwards. I hope she is buried and not cremated.
It is hard to say what would be the outcome as they con’d her into depleting her 401k from multiple jobs, taking out loans, and depleting her bank accounts. I hope she has insurance. She has 2 sons, so maybe she had the smarts to set things in place for them. I don’t know. I don’t think so, as she was too easily manipulated.
Didn’t think she would go out like that. I guess death is not thought of for the young or the middle-aged. I guess it hurts too bad. Memories are the best thing to carry on your back, not regret.
I considered her my friend in the past, but then she became an acquaintance because I chose to walk away. But, she was still there in reality. I don’t think I could call on her to talk to as I didn’t know where her loyalty lied anymore. It’s okay. I made my peace a long time ago. I am sorry she is so sick and pray her sons don’t take it to hard and have the support they need to get through it.